On my kindle so not conducive to a long response, don't beat yourself up over how you're feeling, let yourself feel, we are all entitled to that even when we don't understand the why.

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Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since