Happy New Year. I got through the holidays. too tired last night to do anything special but that was a blessing in a way.

Yesterday had to text H about insurance. D16 has been having headaches and almost passed out yesterday. It could be a lot of things (blood pressure, anxiety, etc.) but definitely time to get it checked it out by a doctor.

A way asked for the info. Got info. Said thank you and he replied sure. Not one question on why D was going to the doctor. Just another observation that makes me sad. Wouldn't you ask? I did not want to alarm H so I thought I'd just verify insurance but if he asked I would be open. H didn't inquire at all. I guess I thought that's how he'd react but still it just hurts my heart. When did he become this cold? I was I crazy all these years? Did I imagine his love and concern for the girls?

I mean he has us insured and a set amount is auto deducted every payday. We seem to be nothing more than an electric bill.

M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters
BD: 5/14
Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW
D Final 9/17

“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.”
― Maya Angelou