Im not sure if this is a good spot to be in. I feel like I have completely let go. Im really ok but I feel like their is no evidence at all of my presence in his life I feel like I have completely did a 180 in the sense he has asked me questions and I have not responded. I feel like I have put this whole decision on is plate. He has to make the moves from this point on because Im not going to help him decide whether he wants his family or not. I have no idea if this will help get my family I dont know if Im doing the right thing. This all feels different I have no choice to trust God. Im without feelings Im just standing in faith at this point. I want my family only if its what God would want for me. Because I dont wont to hurt anyone just because I feel that our family should be together. I have completely changed my thinking controlling and trying to protect my family my way is wrong and I have to change at all costs. I dont know what the future holds but I have to trust that my love while flawed can be changed and renewed with help from God.
Me:34/EXH:29 Kids: S13, D5, D4 M/o7 HaskedforDgavetohim6/14 decided to work on get remarried counseling. Kids work went back to old routine. Left Nov 10 2014 OWDec92014
