- She had sex with me after starting with him. F***. And she was almost certainly thinking of him because she was so different the last couple of times we were together.
- Her new clique is almost certainly in on this. She started hanging out with them around the time this started. Oh, did I mention they all work at a religious publisher? Cool people there
- She lied to me soooo much over the last 7 months. I mean she went out of her way to lie to me most of the time. It wasn't like I was catching suspicious things. She would tell me about guys that flirted with her who she turned down. Why?
- Why did she go to the gym with me all of those times? I was there motivating her to workout...so she could be more attractive for her affair partner. Sickening
- Explains why she stopped going to church with me
- I was numb during the phone call earlier, but she actually tried to throw the porn card at me (I was not arguing or being venomous at all)! That is really sad that she tried to deflect her guilt with that. I hate porn as much as anyone, but it's not even the same universe
- she also said, "If it makes you feel any better, it wasn't just a fling. It was a very meaningful R." I didn't say a word. But my thoughts now are, "It doesn't make a difference to me. And yes, it was a fling. It was the definition of a fling. It ended as soon as his chemicals ran out, a textbook length of 6-7 months"
- This is the first time I have felt like I don't want to reconcile
- This puts the thing with S's friend in perspective. I know for sure that I'm not ready right now
Me 38, WAW 30 D11 (former marriage) S2 T 8 years M 3 years BD 8/20/23 S 8/20/23
