newbie needs help part 5

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What do you feel when wife tells you she really cares about you but doesn't want to be married to you anymore. That's the conversation I had tonight. I had a long conversation with wife tonight and we shared some feelings from our marriage and what problems we had. My wife felt like I didn't respect her at times in our marriage. I validated and told her I would do so many things differently if I had to do it over. I did apologize about beating her up emotionally about her affair. She told me she was really sorry to put me through that. I feel like she is totally detached from me. She has always liked hugging me even through the past year. Tonight she gave me a very cool hug. UT feels like she is gone. I am not sure if I just need to move out and live with my sister and her family 15minutes from here. I will always care for her and all we have been through in 19yrs. I just don't know what or where to go from here.