Feeling for you in this time of uncertainty. I can commiserate with you about feeling conflicted about how you feel about your spouse now knowing about the A during your time together. My W told our friend (the one that finally convinced me there actually was an OM) during our trip to Hawaii for our 10th Anniversary that she had this guy that was more than a friend. Also told her about her Internet A's going on at that time. My poor friend didn't know what to do for almost 8 months until she finally told me after BD. We had a trip to Disney that we had a great time 6 weeks before BD, I guess she was just about checked out of the M and I had no idea.
Anyway, as much as these pains are still in our lives, we need to look forward. How you 'feel' is sometimes short term. Hopefully this confusion is part of that. Remember, it's a marathon. Just because he's trying to work on the M doesn't mean your in sync right now. Hopefully, just like you earlier; his changes will start to take hold for how you feel about him. I hope that in my sitch we can maybe start to get to where you are right now. Keep going....
M:36 W:37 T: 15 M:11 S6 D5 BD: 8/10/14 IDLY: 8/12/14 S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids) D Mentioned: 10/15/14 Confronted about OM: 10/15/14 EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13 She filed: 8/15 (not final)
