I'm sorry frown ...this is tough stuff... I get that, I had 3 years of an in-house mlc-er in multiple EA's and PA's.

There is the 72-hour rule meme around here... wait 72-hours before doing/saying anything, especially when emotionally charged.

It really helped me act like the person I wanted, and was trying, to be.

Is there something you can distract yourself with? Exercise, a walk in nature, etc?

In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus

Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm