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[Mozza]

Thank for checking, Vanilla. Yes, I'm ok. The Holidays are very busy. I have the kids, lots of GAL and celebrations.

Also, I don't know what to do. Or think.

It seems like I'm now in the waiting game. My W has left me and OM is moving in with her next week. Our communications are cordial and to a minimum. It feels like a quick end to a relationship that made her unhappy. It saddens me greatly that the whole S talks were based on lies to get out ASAP and with OM, so we won't have closure, I won't really know what's in her heart or tell her what's in mine. The kids take it in strides. Time to move on, everybody.

My W is on her own journey, as you said. And, as 25yearsmlc's coach told her, life will show her the consequences of her choices; I should just get out of the way. Work on myself. It seems like I already have that plan in place, with the IC, some books, single parenting properly, new clothes and grooming, workout, etc. Not much to add just now.

I find it difficult. My mind is racing and begging for a final answer right NOW, like that of all LBS here. I know, and tell others, that we need to be patient. So that's what I'm doing. I'm still crying several times a day because my W is gone, she's with OM, I lost half my kids, they lost half of each parent, etc. So many layers of hurt. And yet, nothing to do but try to accept it and move on. I do improve overall, every week and I don't know what the future is made of.

So, with all the types of LBS around her, you can see me as the sad and resigned one who's trying to put on a good face and play by the book, hoping that time will make things better, one way or another.