barely holding on - 6

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Starsky - thank you for looking in on me.
I understand not adding "this is not what I want" makes this all sound like I can be manipulated back into ignore mode while she figures things out. I like the way you put the "originally" in there.

I think we both realize that this is not going away. She doesn't want it to go away and I cannot make it go away.

It is tough to do this face to face because she basically runs away when she knows an actual conversation about us is about to begin and I think that is why she asked for it in writing (so she could just throw it away and ignore it).