barely holding on - 6

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thanks for swooping in Wonka!

my goal/intention: I am done playing her game and want to tell her that. I haven't gotten to the part where I tell her that I do not want nor do I want the kids to move out of the house. I do not see real improvement in our situation. She is and can be nice to me, but this means very little to me at this point. She is still with OM and I do not want to have another year like 14.

I think I will do better if she leaves.

But as you can clearly tell - I am broken up by this decision and still want a different outcome.