Pam--thanks for laughing with us here! I will try to login to Yahoo sometime this weekend to catch up, okay?
CBH--we have that many birthdays that are entertwined? Okay, I knew you said you were Aries too... when's your day? I'm really glad I know someone else who's experiencing the birthday bonanza!
And if consulting a psychic is your worst sin, I've got you beat by a long mile. I have that crazy medium friend, have had numerous sessions, 2 past life regressions and hear the damn voices of my own relatives in my head. Hope they can make room for me in the loony bin...
CBH & Myrrh--Boy, nothing gets past you two! Funny you should ask that big leading question.
I've actually thought about it quite a bit. I'll tell you what I decided and let anyone else who has something to say chime in.
I actually devoted a good amount of time worrying about this. I felt a crazymaking episode creeping up on me, so I decided it was best not to think about it. I figure when the day comes, I will pray on it and God will help me find the right words and the right conditions.
I had sort of come to this conclusion before I gave it up to God... because it makes more sense. If I were to tell him that a time will come soon where there will be a filing and no turning back, he might see it as an ultimatum.
Yes, it is. But it's not so that he decides to work on our M out of guilt or to agree with me that it's time to throw in the towel.
If and when that day arrives, it will be because I've decided the path is the one I want to take--not because I'm guilt tripping him into making a choice. If he agrees with me, then I'll know that the hard work is behind me and peace in making that decision will prevail.
If it spurs him into getting his act together, I doubt it will make a whole lot of difference. Why not? Because Mr. W. doesn't devote much (if any) effort into things when he's guilt tripped into a decision. He would have to really want to heal himself and make SIGNIFICANT progress on that front to get me to take notice.
Of course, if he finds a way to tell me he wants to really try to make things work before then, I'll be MORE than happy to sit tight and wait.
Frankly, I'm ready to really get on with my life--in whatever shape and form that takes on. If it's with him, great. If it's without him, bring it on. I really am at peace with myself and whatever outcome prevails and I am pretty sure that detachment will help--regardless.
Peace to all!
Time to reconcile accounts before I do financials....
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
