H came over tonight to spend time with S8. He asked to sleep on the couch and I agreed. After putting S8 to bed I made tea for H and I and then excused myself for bed as well. Naturally I wanted to hang out longer with H and spend time with him but I do this every time he comes over and thought this seemed needy.

I've been laying in bed for the last 10 minutes and H just asked if we could talk about everything in the next two days and said that he would prefer S8 wasn't around.

I have to be honest, this scares the hell out of me. The last time H and I talked about the M was 3 weeks ago when we briefly discussed possibly trying counseling again. But then the convo ended in limbo and the next day H accused me of talking crap about his brother.

So I would say, positives: I set boundaries tonight and didn't sleep with or hang around H. Negatives: he wants to talk. I've been dreading this convo and don't have a good feeling about it.

Pray for me friends.


Me 26 ; H 26
S 8
Married less than a year
Bomb 9/15/14
H moves out 9/15/14
H Files 11/21/14
Served D papers 12/31/14