After my declaration yesterday tonight was hard. I just wrote and erased a whole paragraph about how odd I thought H acted tonight and his movement around the house, realized it doesn't matter what he is doing, it's what I am doing. Mind reading, focusing on him, living in fear.

I am using my IC tools to and sometimes they help, sometimes they don't. I'm not a big believer in resolutions, I feel like you shouldn't have to wait until the new year to make changes, but will have to tie some of my new goals into NY resolutions!

Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since