barely holding on - 6

[u-turn]

Our discussion never happened last night - no surprise. She avoided me like I was a leper (no offence to lepers). She went to sleep after dinner.

So still wanting to address this - I sent her a text this morning asking when a we could spend a little time to address this.

She called me back and was angry (rightfully so I guess - I know this is pressuring her).

She just wants me to write down what I want to talk about and how I want to separate. She stated again that she does not want to be monitored and I should just admit that she was right that I will not be able to live with this.

I did tell her that she has not responded to the things that I have written. She denied this.

she said she was at work then and hung up.

I guess this is my invitation to write down what I want - she is asking for it. I want to state:

-my boundaries have been violated again
-I will not live in an open marriage
-I do not believe that I can move forward with my life while seeing you disrespect me and our marriage
-I do want to do what's best for the kids
-I will not continue to play happy family
-I am letting you go

Sounds like a mess (like my head right now)

I will post it here first. I hope to get some feedback.