Inbetween Land

[Faith2b]

So Im back home after dropping some things off at the new tiny apartment. Im pretty numb right now Im moving from our marital home. This is going to be grow worthy. What I mean is as a woman who prided herself in having home regardless if my Exh made bad choices I fought hard to stay here until he would grow up. I thought for sure he would get it. Well this is what he wanted both of us to have our own place and then work on us from that stand point. Well that cant happen because of this OW he moved in his place. I want that to end so we can start on us but I know thats not my choice nor can I count on him even getting to that point. Its only in God's hands now. I can only focus on me. I have no choice but to be the best mom and woman I can be. Im numb. I want him to realize what he is doing. I want him to come to me. Change Im helpless becuase I cant stop loving a man who has chosen to take me for granted. Just numb. Ine foot in front of the other.