Im so frustrated and confused. I dont want to think about my passed but through the process I realize that even before I was married I had alot of emotional relationships that never lead to me having a whole complete r. So as I interact with my exh and he and I are both moving on I get really concerned about developing something emotional when Im suppose to be in LRT. I guess my concern would be because Im very nice very forgiving. I mean he is with the OW. Anyways my main focus is for me to get to a whole place and heal. He called me this morning. I was excited because today I would be signing my lease. He asked me more questions about the move he also will be helping me we talked about the kids. We also talked about meeting up to exchange Layla's school work. But the big issue now is that he still has not gotten his car back. The fact that he is drivbing the ow car makes for stickiness where I see no need as I am not focused on her. He told me though I would have to pick him up for the help of the move. Well thats all great but Interaction with him means work. Which I guess Im ready for. I told him talks can only be about the family stuff. But he asked me what I meant when I said today was a weird day. So I immediately said thats not about the family.He said "O--KK" like if I was weird. Im just concerned of going down a rabbit hole of no return and me not getting the short stick. I want to save my relationship but I dont wanna be a doormat while he is still seeing if the grass is greenier on the other side. Well not sure how to go about this it seems so hard to balance. any advice?? Dont know if friends will make me hurt worse like a slow leak. or just focus on me and keep my strict no feeling aloud way of communication.
