So.... remember how I said I was seething on the inside? Well I'm not so much now... it kinda came out.... ooops! LOL... all and all though, I didn't really get as crazy as I could have. I wasn't really crazy, at all... just factual...
My underlying fear is tough for me to examine.... I had awesome parents, always there for me, all about unconditional love, but a grandfather that sexually abused me when I was young.... the lasting impactful feeling there for me is shame, I guess.... humiliation..?
The seething came out pretty calmly, and one sided, and very direct. I did say that I wasn't trying to hurt his feelings, or judging him, but I felt that I needed to give him a dose of reality.
It's like the energy of the stretched rubber band. Sometimes it either has to break or let it go and snap someone (or sometimes it will snap you - you never know )
Me-45 W-44 S21, S18, D15 T-27, M-21 BD Jan 2014 PA revealed March 2014 In-house separation - April 2015 I filed - Aug 2015 She moved out Oct 2015