Thanks for your compliment on my post. As corny as it sounds, I have switched myself into "fake it til you make it" mode and that seems to be working, at least for now.
As for your sitch, I can't give you any better advice than Vanilla and Edz as they are the best, but I am rooting for you.
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids