OK got you Ile Guy. I am recommitting to making a positive change in me. I'll re-create the safe haven I had for W even though I will not be spending time with her or speaking with her during my LRT.

I did read your forgiveness link and it was valuable thank you. I talked before with 25 about how I really don't know how to forgive. Now, sometime I feel better about her... even forgiving. That doesn't last but I'm getting better.

And I have started praying with my son at night. Prayer of gratitude for his mom and for our family.

Yes and the meds. I have a good support team in doctor and therapist who will work together for me on this. I will mention my alcohol to my therapist.

I will get better and stronger... right now I feel pretty good and confident thanks. It comes and goes.


Me: 44
W: 45
S: 11
Married: 15
Together: 18
BD: 9/29/2014
OM discovered: 10/16/2014
I left her behind: 12/14/2014