Requesting support and direction

[Andy125]

Thanks Linda. It's certainly been a trying day. I have had some ups and downs throughout the day. Honestly I ended my night and started my morning being positive and trying to empathize with what my W might be going through. What has driven her to be like this. I honestly am on the road to forgiveness for a lot of this, but it's definetly hard. I have my times I struggle. I think your post is great and I will certainly adopt thinking even more positively. In a positive note I didn't say anything. I didn't tip my hand and I didn't bring up last night. I almost did at one point on the car ride home with her (we dropped the kids off with grandma for a couple days) but I quickly STFU. I probably missed an opportunity to talk more... That is probably where I get a F- grade on the evening.

I know this evening they are planning to "chat" again... I will remain positive that that conversation will be flat. And I'll keep looking for miracles as best as I can.

Unfortunately right now I don't have a lot of supporters for me to keep this up. There are a lot of my close friends telling me to stop being walked all over.