[BrightFuture]

Matt, I hear you. I am trying to understand what is holding me from completely letting go of H. I guess I will find out eventually, if I dig deeper.

Job, I don't think that my friends called him after I left. I think he actually called the office before my male friend left to take care of his son and wife. I vaguely remember he mentioned something in this regard.

I am ok today. And I am glad that this visit is over.

Job, I think you are right again, about him testing the waters. I am not sure what the intent was, but I did notice a couple other things I forgot to mention. He did look at the shelves, one with the special nesting dolls which he brought from the country I am from. Like he wanted to make sure they were still there, but didn't ask to take them with him. Then he looked at the shelf above the piano, where we always had other souvenirs from our multiple trips displayed (and there are still there) and where our picture used to be. The picture is no longer there. I also removed all the pictures of his relatives. It was done long time ago, about 2 years by now. Did he expect to see something different there?

To me it appeared like he was actually trying to look around in the house. I didn't notice this kind of behavior in the previous visits. I might be wrong though.

You are also right about him treating me like a keeper. He was always very responsible person, so this behavior of not finishing the things off (like removing of his remaining stuff from the house and filing for D) is not in his character. Something must be holding him from doing it all. Unless I was wrong all along about him and his character. Don't know anymore ...