New, looking for help. WAW won't communicate.

[jp787]

Okjpc,

A couple things to remember.

What we are going through is not linear, but very mercurial.
For me expectations are very difficult. If I do or say something and tell myself I won’t have any expectations, I have just admitted I already have them. That is just me.

I see in you what I fight with a lot, needing outside reassurance. That is something we need to be able to find within ourselves. Easy? Nope.

One big thing I have come to accept and I say accept as I have always known this, yet always kept it buried, is there was NO way I could fix myself while remaining married. I’m not saying this is true of you or anyone else, but for me it was. Deep down I knew this and I forced into a locked box of denial. My point is really look deep within yourself, you alone hold the answers that you need.

This, for me is a pattern of my life. I don’t deal with anything until my hand is forced. Reactive instead of proactive.

I am making resolutions as I see them. I won’t make any on New Year’s Eve, if that makes sense.