T... End of jan is a long way off...As a guy, Maybe he is waiting to see if you fall into your old self again... encourage him to go out and reconnect... NO SEX!!! that will only confuse the issue. and no pressures. Just hang out and create an environment that he wants to be around. You have 4 weeks... No more melt downs.. try to reconnect and let him take notice that you are changing the environment. He knows you love him.... don't be needy... make those 180's and keep up the PMA. remember, there will be setbacks... but he already chose you once and there is even less reasons now that he wont again!!! just reconnect and tackle the issues afterwards....
Good luck.. we're in your corner on this.
Prayers out to you and for him..
Together 06-04 Married 10-05 She Left 10-11-14 I filed 10-22-14