Yes 5:1 can be a little overwhelming. I'm aiming at more positives than negatives for now. I don't know where we are honestly. It seems H is done 'pursuing' me. I knew that full force wouldn't last forever but I didn't think it would do a 180. He seems back to his 'old self'. Comments about just being stressed at work. I would swear I was in a time warp. I feel I have done a lot to change my reactions and approaches to things we I deal with wrong in the past. But I'm still here with pretty much the same person. I feel so defeated. I feel like a WAW. I'm just having a bad day but I do feel down.
I want the man that showed me affection and could have a conversation more than just yes. I had attributed the last couple weeks to holiday and work stress but even on vacation it's more of the same. Trying to DB myself out of this one. I told H he seems annoyed with me at times and that he doesn't want to seem to carry on a conversation. He said he doesn't believe that. So I'll agree to disagree at this point. Come on MC
Ugh I am such a work in progress. This may sound selfish but since I feel like I can be honest here ... He should be busting his ass for this R! I'm trying to do my work of telling him my feelings and how I feel that I'm not a priority to him lately. I am trying to experiment with what works and I have not been very fruitful lately.
Anyway ... Thanks to whomever is listening. Happy New Year to everyone!
