I am with you on that one-- my drive is high and it's hard for me to turn down sex with someone when I know it will be good, I can be completely comfortable, and I believe I do not have to worry about STD's. The sexual tension is so high around H and I that I crave him constantly. I guess this will be a test of my self control. But in the end, feeling good for a few minutes doesn't compare to waking up and feeling used and worthless for days.
This is the first time I've felt this way after H and I have slept together post DB, and it's awful. The fact that it's hitting me days later is hard as well.
I believe my H's two love languages are physical touch and words of affirmation. I saw making love as a way to use his love language. But I guess in this situation it doesn't apply.
This is truly the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. I know I am so much younger than many of the people on here, but D was never something I thought would be in the cards for me. I am someone who would be committed until death. And I thought I had found the same. Even in past relationships when people cheated on me, I felt a sense of betrayal. But this goes beyond anything I've ever experienced. I find myself truly wondering if I will ever be able to question the sincerity or believe in the commitment of another again.
Me 26 ; H 26 S 8 Married less than a year Bomb 9/15/14 H moves out 9/15/14 H Files 11/21/14 Served D papers 12/31/14
