Wife having emotional affair part 4

[3kids]

This might be a long post but need to get some stuff out.

Let's start out by saying on Friday, it was not a good day. I didn't have my kids and the day off. I got the house all cleaned and oil changed in the truck. Cleaned the truck, did laundry. Went for a walk. All by noon. I sat down and watched a movie, made myself a drink. And that's when it went bad. I wasn't in the right place to have a drink and they continued. Called my mom crying on how my life [censored] right now. Man I feel like such a weak man after doing that. Ignored a text from the oldest and a call from his mom. Asking some questions about the up coming week. I don't know what they where thinking because she has tickets for today's NFL game with the oldest. And he wanted to go up north fishing for the weekend with his grandpa. Which he couldn't have done with out not going to the football game. I feel like such a heel for not answering the boy. But I just couldn't.

I thought if I could just put some space between the wife and I. I could detach more. Like not answering some phone calls and text. And replying to some at a later time or taking some phone calls. But it's worked the opposite way. She doesn't text or call as much now. And I actually miss hearing from her. I find myself wondering what she or they are doing. And I haven't ever done that. She is really quiet now and doesn't talk much. Except the basics about the kids. Maybe I miss the friendship part, I don't know. Last time she picked up the kids she was wondering about birthday parties for the kids. And I said well you can do your side and I'll have mine. Just like we should do. Like we are going to do for the rest of there parties. Maybe that was wrong I don't know. But we are not a happy family together anymore. And I just got the feeling that's what she was trying to do. She didn't respond, so who knows.

In the books it says try something for awhile and if you don't feel like it's is working stop doing it. Is this working? Not for me because I'm not feeling more detached. Just more empty. I don't know maybe I should do the birthdays together. Just really confused right now.

Thanks 3kids