Life 2.0 Pt 3

[NH115]

Wow, Vanilla, that song fits perfectly. Thanks! I've never listened to a lot of Keith Urban, I need to check him out more.

Interesting day. I thought we were really going to separate. We weren't fighting, but she was just at a point where she felt like we weren't working any more. I didn't fight her. I just stayed calm (because that's what I felt) and we talked about me finding an apartment. I just told her that I wanted her to be happy. I think she was surprised (as was I) at how panicked I was not. I did tell her about the woman I met and told her honestly that it took some of the fight out of me with regards to our M. Not that I wanted to pursue anything with the woman per se, but that I finally saw that I would have a life post-D.

At one point during our R talk she said that she didn't think she'd ever be happy again; that she was just being swept along in life. I told her that was the same line of crap I used to spew when she would try to prop me up in the past, before I finally got a clue that happiness comes from within. That seemed to resonate with her. We got something to eat and went to the gym. After our workout her rhetoric had changed. She talked about doing what we could to create positive memories for ourselves; about taking care of the things we could control. She started to talk about ML again. She's still open about feeling lost, but her attitude has changed.

I'm still not getting too excited, but it was interesting to watch. I know she didn't have some epiphany about OM. It's amazing what happens to a WAS' attitude when they start to realize that you're no longer afraid of being without them, that you have other romantic prospects, and that you're going to have a good life whether they're around or not.