Was starting to feel sorry for myself again about new year's, so I did some digging to remember the last few years:
--came straight home from honeymoon to friends party. Literally straight from airport (and I should mention that I came down with terrible food poisoning on our last day so I couldn't even eat or drink anything and was exhausted!
--was in Europe on a terrific vacation. Quiet but delicious dinner.
-- celebrating a friend's wedding
--home with a newborn baby
-- overnight with D and H at a friend's house. Most grownups were asleep before midnight.
--H made a special dinner for us at home; I made a special dessert. We had gone to a fun concert the night before.
This past year, i was newly separated and out with girlfriends.
So... I've had a pretty good run and there is nothing to be sad about. I'm taking D to see a show during the day. If I end up eating pizza, watching a few episodes of mad men (just started the series!) and get a good night's sleep I can be ok with that.
Next year maybe I will take a fun vacation. Maybe with a new boyfriend... that's a long time away...
I've also decided to not be so sad over the friendships I've lost. Some people are only in your life for a shot time. That's ok. Friendships don't have to be forever.
