I'm getting nervous about tomorrow, ya'll. I haven't seen my in-laws since February 9th -- one week after my mini-BD. (During an argument, I had said to H, "It's like you don't even want to be married to me anymore," and he said, "Sometimes I don't.") I was in a terrible mood because H was ignoring me (surprise!) and his parents even commented to him afterward about how different I seemed.
Of course, I'm in a much better place now than I was then. Then, my H claimed he loved me but he wasn't backing it up. My instincts were telling me that something was very wrong, but he was denying it. Nothing in my world added up right. I honestly thought that I might be going crazy.
Now, I know where I stand. The worst thing I could imagine happened and I am still here. I am okay. The fact that we are going to his parents together as a family unit is a good sign. I should be happy.
But I am worried. MIL will be great. (The one and only time that I talked to her after BD she told me that this changed nothing about our relationship and she still loved me.) SIL will be great. (Coincidentally, I just Facetimed with her for about an hour the other day when our kids abandoned their call with each other. It was the first time we'd spoken since BD, and the first thing she said to me was, "There's my sister!")
FIL is a different matter entirely. I know that I will be pleasant no matter what, but he has a history of interfering in my SIL's marriage and I'm more than a little worried that he'll do or say something inappropriate that makes it awkward for everyone.
I think another wrinkle for me is that my in-laws have moved house since the last time I visited them. I can't picture what it's going to look like because I really have no idea.
