I made it.....mostly :)

[mishka422]

Dang, I had just typed a long entry and managed to lose it somehow!

This has been a strange but wonderful Christmas.

On the 23rd I started to get sick and by Christmas eve I realized it was a full blown flu. I spent my Christmas eve in bed medicated while I sent Gabe and Marc to our extended family Christmas Eve gift exchange. I was so bummed to miss it. I started to feel a little better by Christmas morning. We had about an hour reprieve before Gabe started coming down with it. As of today we still haven't had our Christmas dinner because none of us has felt like making it.

In the 1 hour break in the illness in our house something extraordinary happened. I saw Marc and Gabe whispering together when I walked back in to the living room. Marc smiled and left the room and I didn't ask any questions. The two of them have a language of their own and I figured they were talking about one of their shared interests. Well, it was a shared interest, but not what I was thinking. Gabe came over, sat down on the couch next to me and said, "What would you think of us getting remarried?"

WHOA! Holy cow! Never in a hundred years would I have thought he would come to this on his own but he did. He said he loves me more now than ever and he wants us to be fully committed. Miracle.

The strange part of this is that for the last month I have been composing and rewriting a speech I planned on giving him on Christmas even when we got back from my family gathering asking him to commit to our relationship in full and marry me. That plan was waylaid because I was so sick. Divine intervention? I tend to think so. If I had taken that step it might have been to much of a push from me.

So.......next step........