Maybell XXV: Moving Toward the Lighthouse

[Maybell]

Preliminary thoughts after a night of hard sleep (and I need more)

1) yes -- more time is required -- I am hurt and not capable of much generosity. Need to take time to heal from that.

2) him same. I do not understand where his hurt comes from and that's frustrating. But it may not be all me.

3) I've been praying for clarity like mad. If the reluctance I feel to end this marriage is my clarity then I need to pray for patience too. And spend some time in my journal spelling out all the things I feel hurt about so I can acknowledge them and begin to let them go. If it's not then I need to pray for courage.

Thank God Christmas is only once a year. I can't spend this much time with him again for a long time. It would kill all my progress.