You've had a lot of together time. It's hard to catch your breath and evaluate your needs in the circumstances. You do deserve better. I think you might be in a similar space to where I was last year. Finding your boundaries like you did at the party will help a lot.
Hugs and a toast to a better 2015.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15