Maybell, I don't know that I have anything useful to say other than I completely recognize the pain that you're in right at this very moment.
I've got a lot of built up anger and resentment towards my wife. Some founded, some not founded at all; all of it completely useless to my healing and absolutely destructive to any future reconciliation.
Holidays are tough. Don't make any decisions about anything now.
I wish I knew the right thing to say. Then again, if I did I probably wouldn't be in the mess I'm in, myself.
Merry Christmas, Maybell.
Me 47 - W 35 M 9 - T 10 2 Daughters - 7 & 9 Discovery of EA- 8/4/14 S - 8/5/15 D mentioned - 9/11/14 R & Piecing - 3/17/15 Regard one another as more important than yourselves. - Philippians 2:3