I think I'm done

[Maybell]

Hey, MS, I just posted something on my thread that I almost posted here. I am enough, and you are too.

I've been struggling a lot lately with whether I'm actually married to the guy I've been describing to people for years. I really don't have any idea anymore.

Struggling with forgiveness too. But for me, I think I'm just starting to realize how very deeply he hurt me. I worked so hard for so long to minimize everything that was happening because I was so desperate to save the marriage. Now I'm not so *desperate* to save the marriage I feel like I'm getting knocked again by all the hurt the way I should have been in the first place.

Forgiveness is going to be a process.

I don't know how that grabs you. I'm just rambling but I didn't want to leave you hanging.

Take care this weekend, I hope you find real joy as the year winds down.