New, looking for help. WAW won't communicate.

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Mozza & HP,

Thank you both for your thoughts. And you're both absolutely right.

I haven't been sleeping well the past few nights, so I've been a little more vulnerable to negative thinking.

But tonight I did go to a movie with my kids, my sister and BIL and a cousin that I'm very close with who is visiting his parents from Europe right now. We had a good time. I brought the kids home, my mom got them into bed and I drove my cousin to his parents' house in a nearby town.

He has been going through a D for a little over a year and got so depressed a couple of months ago he attempted suicide. Luckily he survived (but has needed quite a few painful surgeries) and has woken up quite a bit. He is also starting to have second thoughts about his D. I talked about my sitch and recommended he read DR, which he said he would do. He's doing better these days with the PMA and GAL. It was really nice to see him and catch up with him. We've always been very close, but he's lived in the UK for 10 years, and I don't get to see him in person but every couple of years.

So I'm in a much better space right now. Will get up early to go to one last AA meeting here in town, visit my very elderly grandmother one more time then head home with the kids.

But again guys, thank you for weighing in and helping to keep me straight and focused.