If I can hijack this message, this applies to me to me. This is worst Christmas I have ever experienced. I took my kids to church because she asked me to, it SUCKED. My wife came over this morning drop the kids off and some presents and it SUCKED. She could not wait to leave. Her phone texts that I snooped like an idiot were full of love and longing from her AP. This SUCKED and almost screwed my whole day. I am forcing myself to stay out of bed and rake some leaves just to stay active.
My wife is dead to me now and I have to accept that reality. Anything I do or say is wrong and I am the enemy. This blows, but I accept that my wife is very broken right now. There is nothing I can do to stop her free fall, only protect myself and my two beautiful children.
I am praying to God for strength to get through this intact.
