If you are reading this: I wish you joy, love and light. May the universe play out as it was meant to in your life, with the least amount of pain and suffering possible, and the most peace, enlightenment and calm possible. Detach, let go, walk forward and let your troubles resolve without clutching on to them and trying to control things you cannot. You will be okay in the end, I know this to be true.
Lots of love and happy holidays,
Little (but FIERCE!)
ME: 38 BF: 40 T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice) BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R. 10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW 12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies
Just a quick update. I'm moving this weekend! Already made a trip, came home to eat lunch and do another. Furniture gets done tomorrow!
My holiday was much more peaceful than I ever thought it was going to be. I figured I'd be dwelling on Christmas Eve, which was always spent with BF's family, and how OW has basically replaced me.
Instead I never really thought about it, had a great dinner with a friend's family. Went over friend's last night and had a blast, too.
So, in the end, while BF crossed my mind, I was peaceful.
I hope everyone else's holiday was at least manageable, too.
ME: 38 BF: 40 T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice) BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R. 10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW 12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies
Have an internet connection now, so I'll be checking in more frequently. The move is complete save the unpacking.
I don't know where I am emotionally. Mostly not thinking about BF and trying to remain peaceful.
Will check in on other people's sitch and comment some. See how my DB friends are doing.
ME: 38 BF: 40 T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice) BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R. 10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW 12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies
Don't think I've dropped by your thread before. Just wanted to say happy house warming and send a virtual welcome basket. May you always be happy there. :-)
Edz
M:44, W:46, S:10 M 13 years, T 15 BD:23/7/2014 W/S Moved to MIL: 23/7/2014 My new place: 21/11/2014 W/S back to flat 22/11/2014 W coming closer, talking 4/2015 Piecing 5/2015 Moving in again 6/2015
Thanks so much, peeps. I can't tell you how much I value everyone's support here. I don't think I'd be where I am today with out all of you cheering me on. And I very much enjoy cheering everyone else on, too.
I was thinking this weekend how proud of myself I am that I can survive without any help. As old as I am, sometimes I still feel like a teenager. I forget that I am an adult, and that all of my successes or failures are a direct result of what I do or don't do.
SO: I found a beautiful apartment and I will survive (dare I hope -- even THRIVE!!) here. On my own. Supporting myself.
I don't need BF to be happy and fulfilled. I don't need to rush into another R, as a means of running away from myself or my issues. Instead, I'm working on me, being self-aware of my strengths and weaknesses and choosing to better me FOR me.
I am on a path to healing, improvement, and rebirth.
Also, I'm tickled pink that this morning I had two cats watching me take my morning tinkle. I haven't lived alone and tinkled with the door open since 2003. Hehehe.
ME: 38 BF: 40 T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice) BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R. 10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW 12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies
