Sounds like you are doing a bit better. I understand the joy being less this year for sure. There is no way around it, only through it.
My goal for the Holidays: "Dont' make it worse". That may seem odd, but it's very simple. I treat this holiday season the same as I would a disaster seen. Our guiding principle is that no matter what we do, just don't make it worse. Maybe this approach will help you establish a baseline also.
God Bless You Sir. :-)
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