barely holding on - 6

[u-turn]

Paul - thanks!
I do feel like progress is being made in the way that I actually feel like she is not coming back - I don't think she will allow herself to. She would have to have some grand epiphany at this point. I know of no other way.

I am coming to terms with this and "getting through" the holidays for the kids. The trouble that I'm having with this is it is all fake to me and it makes me bitter.

I am through apologizing. She has heard it before, I don't think I need to say it again. She knows I have taken responsibility for my faults and cannot change the past.

I do need to get myself back