((Water!!))
I'm so happy to see you! Sorry you are not feeling better.

I don't want to whack you. I TOTALLY understand about knowing what's right the DB way, but feeling the NEED to express my feelings and try to get something from H. I agree with Ellie that he is depressed/seems to have a very low opinion of himself, and he pretty much has nothing to give you b/c he is not giving to himself.

He sounds so VERY VVERY confused! Of course, he wants you and your bod!

I can understand you being tired too. I know we are in very different places, but I am surmising how you feel w/the pending D and him acting this way. I'm sorry you didn't hear what you wanted to hear (or anything!).

What to do? What do you feel like doing? Do you have a plan in mind? Can you back off (again) and let him "be?" I don't think it is a bad thing to give him reassurance, but if I were you, I'd feeling smacking him about now! "dipsh!t, I love you and want to be with you, so get your frickin' head screwed on!!" ha What would happen if you agreed with him? "yeah, you really aren't a good father." Maybe he feels guilty b/c you are being TOO nice to him! Like he doesn't deserve you so he feels crummy. ??? Just throwin' some stuff out there.

Sometimes when I know I've done something wrong, I want the other person to express his anger! B/c then I wonder if it will be held over my head forever... It shows love somehow too-does that make sense? Give him a kick in the pants? He's wallowing in self-pity.

I don't know if this helps at all or not, but I am thinking about you!
karen