Riding the rollercoaster

[u-turn]

I am deciding how to handle asking her to leave after the holidays too. I don't feel good about it. I have thought of myself as a somewhat chivalrous person and this is not chivalry. But what can I do? I've also martyred myself through my marriage, not cared about myself, taken the hits so she would be happy.

I don't want to leave but part of me says I can get through it better if I just go. I am torn and all over the place.

I found the pattern too. My wife is extra nice to me when she plans something w/ OM, or feels guilty about being with him. (mind reading, but it's been noticeable). and gets angry when I don't respond to it.

Take care of yourself