Jefe - Climbing out of the mire - #8

[Jefe]

Grandma is doing ok. However, her hallucinations are growing more frequent and more vivid by the day and we're still not sure why. We also are not sure if she could or even should come home for Christmas. There's a strong possibility she may never come "home".

My uncle crafted a beautiful plan/story for the death of the dog which completely removed me from the hot seat, so very thankful for that. She's taking it as well as she possibly could.

The kids are doing good. They still ebb and flow from could care less to crying at night missing having her home with us. But then again, don't we all?

The wife? Yeah, we swing all over the place too. She's back to finding silly reasons, ones that could wait, to call or text every day. Some days, I'm right on it. Others, well my phone has a neat feature where I can delay a text or send one a a specific time. That has worked well for me by being able to answer it right away but sending it 15-45 minutes later without forgetting. She did go to church yesterday, not to our church but another very poplar one nearby. Funny choice though, because they are even more stout on marriage and upholding vows than ours is. But I am very thankful that she went.

Am I detached?

No.

Can I go at least 45 minutes a day without thinking about her?
(As Twinmom suggested)

Sure.

Am I enjoying the holidays this year?

Not even close.

No one thing has robbed my joy, but the cumulative weight has become very difficult to carry some days.

And this too shall pass.

Thank you RPP for caring. The rest of you guys too.