Good morning~ When I got home last night H was at the house. H and oldest S were in the garage. H has been storing his motorcycle in the garage since he moved to Seattle. H is selling it to a friend. The neighbor came over and we all stood around for a little while and just chatted.
A little later H needed to hook his laptop up to DSL connection. "Oh here H, let me bend WAY over to unhook the cable." Yes, he took advantage of the view of my behind and did a little feel!
While he was working on his laptop we talked about our plans for the evening. He said that the hotel he usually stays at was all booked. I asked what he wanted to do, he didn't know. I told him he was welcome to stay in Laurie's bedroom. We stole several kisses.
We had a very simple dinner and all of us watched TV for a little bit.
He hung out with both kids. Our youngest doesn't get home from work until 8:00. H sat in his room and chatted with him for a while.
It was almost 10:30 and well, I was tired. So I just layed on the bed for a while. At some point H came upstairs and was watching TV with oldest S and fiance. They were watching a movie. When the movie was over, S and fiance leave H sleeping on couch.
Hummmmm H alone on the couch? I go out and we start making out. Then we moved into my (our) bed. We ended up sleeping all night there. I didn't realize how creeky the bed is! LOL
A whole evening with H at home. Am I correct in thinking that staying at the house is a bigger deal than staying at a hotel as far as the kids are concerned? Even the kids are certainly aware of whats going on if I stay with him at a hotel or visit him in Seattle, its another thing to stay at the house.
H is having his car shipped to Seattle. He is leaving it the house for the shippers to pick it up there. Yesterday when he first told me he was in town, he was planning on going back last night. So this morning as we are going out to the car, he gets a suitcase out of the trunk. Now I know that H has just taken a shower and put the same clothes he had on last night back on. Yet my muckville self says, "why didn't you bring your bag in and change your clothes?" He tells me in a not so happy tone, that the bag has all the stuff from his car, since it has to be cleaned out to ship. He then proceeds to ask why I got my stuff out of my bag this morning and maybe I had been away. I told H that earlier in the evening, we were talking about staying at a hotel so I put my things in a bag. H says how do I know your telling the truth? How do we know what the other is telling is the truth?
I need some direction to deal with the trust issues we are having. How do I learn to trust again? How do I build my H's trust in me?
I drove H to the airport this morning. We had nice conversation on the way.
Still confused. Any thoughts anyone has on this would be very much appreciated.....
