[BrightFuture]

I’ve been spinning like crazy for the last few days. I have so much anxiety, it is not funny.

I think part of it is about receiving a Christmas card from H’s older brother, whose daughter got married back in September, where my son was not even invited. So, the card is her wedding picture with her parents (my BIL) and brother. And the message included (typed on a piece of paper): “Dear Family & Friends, With the passing of time, it’s always interesting to reflect upon the events of the year. We treasure the memories of time spent with loved once near and far, and we are thankful for each new day. Some are more memorable than others, but all are a gift. The highlights of our year include “son’s” graduation from XXX with a degree in XXX, the celebration of our 30th wedding anniversary in XXX (with “son”, “daughter” and “her H”) and “daughter’s marriage to wonderful man XXX. These joyous celebrations fill our hearts. Wishing you a blessed holiday season and a new year filled with love and laughter.”

Is this a f@@@ing joke? The card was addressed to me and my son. OMG. I just cannot believe how self-absorbed these people are. Who are we supposed to be? Friends? Or family? Why my son was not invited to the wedding then. Why send me this f@@@ing card? I’m just so mad… I’m also mad at H for putting me and my son through this.

H is supposedly driving this way. I suspect that he will spend the Christmas in the city he grew up, hooking up with his HS friends. I will collect his mail tomorrow and take it to his brother’s. I will text him to let him know and ask him if he needs anything else from the house. Will see if he will have an excuse to come to the house anyway. I don’t want him here. I don’t want to see him either. I hope he will get the message.

Vge1, thanks for stopping by. I will visit your thread when I have some time. Take care of yourself. There is nothing more important than your health. I keep reminding myself about it every day.