I just got off the phone with H I asked where he thought we were. he said that we are working on our friendship
He said he is not looking for a long term relationship and that he is not able to do that, but that he is not looking to be a player either I asked if he was still involved with anyone else and he got a little angry and said how many times a day do i have to answer that question I said, she loves you; he said Who? I said OW He said he is not involved with her he asked why i was compelled to go through his stuff that maybe I shouldn’t be with someone I cannot trust. I said I don’t trust her. I told him I am searching for answers
he said that he feels we are making progress but that he thinks I want something long term I told him that I understand us wanting to put an end to our old relationship I just wish it wasn’t through this process. He said he understood both sides. I said maybe we could have a privet ceremony type thing to do away with the past. and see where it goes. I didn't wait for a response. Just said: just a suggestion.
he said he thinks that I have made so many good improvements and that I am twice the person I used to be he said to just keep being myself he asked if i was involved with anyone else; I told him no. That I don’t want to let anyone else into my life. That I know we still have things to work out, and that I would rather do that with someone I love and that I think still loves me. I told him I do want THE long term relationship with him that I know we can have and I know that we would have to go SLOW That if he called me tomorrow with some revelation that I was the one and asked me to move up there i would say, Hold on....
I just want to know that is what we are working towards he just said that he is not in a place to have a long term relationship I thanked him for taking the time to answer my crazy questions he said that they are not crazy and that it is good for us to have these talks I told him my offer to come to FL with me he said if it stays as busy as it has been he would consider it.
