KGirl - one year later con't

[KGirl]

Thanks, paul!

Card - re: your last post on my old thread. Underlying this all.. I'm pretty angry at my sister for letting me down on this, because that kind of snowballed into everything else being stressful yesterday. Had she picked me up on time like we agreed, we would have been done eating, in the bar, if people had thought they were eating they could have just done so in the bar. Instead at 7pm we were sitting in a booth for only 4 people (rushing to get food in our mouths) so no one else coming at that time could have joined us. Had I had time to troubleshoot I could have just said "you know, it's too late to do a sit down dinner, we'll just need to sit in the bar and eat since other people are joining us shortly."

And this is why I have such a hard time doing things with other people and planning events, and why I'd prefer to do things on my own most of the time. I don't feel like I can count on them. We had agreed we'd eat dinner at 6 and my sister said she'd be my ride. At 6:05 she called and said "we're on our way there.. but are we supposed to pick you up?" Yes, that is what being my ride entails. We didn't get there until after 6:15. I guess for next time I'll learn that I either just need to do a dinner, or just drinks, and not try and split the difference between both because I can't count on people to follow instructions or be on time. And my sister didn't even have a reason - they had taken the opportunity while they were in town to go shopping at a store they don't have in her town, and the checkout lines were long, apparently.

So yeah. I guess what I'm REALLY upset about (and maybe not the logistics of the birthday celebration) is just feeling like people are letting me down so much lately. First H, and then my own family and friends. If I let them go and don't involve them in things then who do I have left?