I sent H an email this morning giving him flight information for a trip I am taking to Florida in April. I am inviting him for 5 days of SUN and FUN. I am going there on business, but am going a few days earlier. I had mentioned it to him before.
His reply: Nice! I wanted to let you know some old bad news or signatures for you will need to close out our past and start new.
I called him and he said that there are some papers I will need to sign for this. I asked what did that mean? He said for the D. (he said D too, not the word). He didn't want me to be caught off guard or to take it as a negitive thing. He said that it might sound silly and maybe it is just a mental thing but he needs to close that part of our life out. I told him that is a big thing. I felt that we could start new without having to go through this. I thought we could just set things aside for a time. When we went on an over night trip right after Thanksgiving, he had the final papers we had signed on the floor of his car. He even asked me why those papers were still there. Implying that they were not being turned in at the moment.
I told him that I don't want this and that we CAN start new without going through this. But if that is what he wants I would not stand in his way. It's just a big thing.
He quickly changed the subject to tell me an update on a house we looked at for him this weekend.
He said he would call me later.
I replyed to his email, asking if we were starting new.
I know the responses will be, "it's just a piece of paper" , "so much can happen" , just because you D doesn't mean you have to give up". It still hurts like HE!!.
