WAH - gone almost 1 year, still so hard.

[stacey9]

The changes I've made over the last few months have been around insecurity and jealousy issues I had during our M. I have not mentioned the OW since I first saw them together in July. I have not asked him about his life or his plans. I have not been been needy and I try to remain positive when he's around. I always try an look my best. I have become super-fit and train 4 times a week - the difference in how I look and hold myself is amazing.

I honestly do not know if he has noticed any of this. I figure he must have. But he has not mentioned it, or asked any questions about me or my life. He just does not seem interested in me at all.

I continue to hope he will get fed up with the OW and the excitement will wear off, or that he will come to realise that what we had was actually quite good.

I do go out with friends and have been asked out on a couple of dates, but the thought just repels me at the moment.

Everybody tells me to move on and forget him, and I tell them if it was that easy I would have done it 6 months ago.

Hoping 2015 is better for us all.