I'm amazed at how difficult it is for you to get in the DB mindset, even though your W is practically the poster girl for it. You keep pursuing and repeating that you want to save the M for instance. Any chance she doesn't know this yet? It's now annoying the heck out of her and pushing her away. You keep wallowing about how much you suck rather than feeding your PMA. You keep saying you have no chances as if you knew while DB encourages patience. You want to expose the A. I could go on and on.
If you want to succeed, it's not going to be about small adjustments here and there, it will be about changing your entire attitude to your sitch. I'm not even sure you can imagine what it looks and feels like.
You should take a page out of HPoirot's playbook. He took the reins and changed the dynamic. He just had his head shaved and beard trimmed. What about doing that too? Something similar to feel a new man? An anchor for your changes?
Probably not.
M39 D6 D3 (at S) S 2014-09 D 2016-09
"You can't start a fire sitting around, crying over a broken heart" - Bruce Springsteen.
