Gwen, I'm sorry he's not been in contact, but many of them disappear around this time of the year. If your daughters have not heard from him by Christmas Eve, I would offer up this as a suggestion...have them text him "Merry Christmas". He may respond back to them.
No, you didn't imagine him leaning into you. At that time, he was very much in love w/you. I realize that a year has come and gone, but in that time, he's lost his way on the Yellow Brick Road and the love he had for you then is still very much alive, but stuffed way down into his soul right now. He's suffering internally and until he can heal his pain, he's going to be out there walking the path around the world. What you experienced last year was not an illusion, it was real.
Travel safely tomorrow and try to enjoy the holiday. Think of him overseas on a business trip and is unable to come home right now.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
